[ as lonely as she is without her other half, there's a small benefit in not having him with her. it means he could be safe at home. Johanna told her she didn't need to worry about Gloss. so she's trying to not worry. ]

He's going to think I finally went crazy. [ imagining that gets a small smile out of her. ] Or that I met a bunch of crazy people who say they never heard of Panem. That's what's crazy.